(286) “Holding onto Hope” with Patricia Bartell (Part 2)

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Because I know I've got my tikvah, my hope, the

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promise that he said, you know, I will be healed.

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I will have new legs, you know. And so that's

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the concept of saying and surrendering. And it's

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easier to surrender when you have your tikvah,

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when you have the promises. And ultimately, he

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is our hope. God promises in Joel 2 .28 to pour

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out His Spirit on all humanity. Welcome to Global

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Outpouring, where we contend for that promised

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outpouring, we equip for that outpouring, so

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that we may engage in that very outpouring. I'm

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Philip Buss. And I'm Sharon Buss. Welcome to

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the podcast today. We have part two with Patricia

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Bartell today, and she's going to tell us more

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about the amazing successes that she's had and

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how hope, hanging on to hope, is going to pay

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off for you. Thank you so much for joining us

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Spirit in a very powerful way, and it's only

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going to increase. We need to be ready. Well,

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Patricia Bartell, thank you so much for joining

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us a second time. We're excited to do another

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episode with you because there's so much more

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to your life than what we could cover in the

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last episode. And we just we want to know more

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about like what happened that got you into a

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music academy. Like you wanted to do these accordion

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world championships in order to be able to help

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your students. What was your dream, and how did

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you get that dream, and how did God make that

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happen? Very, very good question. So it's interesting

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because the Music Academy, it's Bartow Music

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Academy now, over 200 students, didn't actually

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initiate from me. So I taught students as a way

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to help me through college. And so it was really

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interesting because coming out of a one of 18

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in my family, there was no extra money for college.

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But it was amazing as I began to see the pattern

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that every time I needed money, quarters to go

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do laundry, the phone would ring and say, hey,

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would you play for this wedding? Or would you

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play for this birthday party? And then the months

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I didn't need money, the phone never rang. Wow.

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So it was just a vehicle that God used. He was

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my provider. And it was just so cool to see that.

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So then I graduated from college and I began

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teaching. And I thought I was going to be in

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the schools, the public schools, you know. And

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it turned out I was only in it for a couple of

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years. because I was traveling so much from different

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countries, number one on traveling as the USA

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judge for the World Championships, but I also

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was starting on different ministry trips. So

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now I enter because of all the healing that God

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begins. in my life it's like now i'm like opening

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up more and more i have a you know i'm starting

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to figure out like cool i have a voice and i

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can start sharing the things god's doing in my

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life so i'm traveling to the philippines traveled

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with bruce going to fiji that was my first mission

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trip oh wow and i went to mexico and then and

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it was prophesied get this um i was in a conference

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and this lady with red hair forget her name And

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she said, don't not expect a prophetic word from

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me, you know, and she made this very clear at

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the beginning. And so she's just this fireball.

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And she comes off the stage and keeps preaching,

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and she's standing right next to me. I was sitting

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on the edge of the aisle there. And all of a

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sudden, she turned around, slammed her hand on

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my head, totally startled me. I was expecting

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it. And she said, cried out, nations, you're

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going to travel to Mexico. You're going to travel

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to this and that and all these things. And I

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just was so shocked. And she said within three

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minutes, Wow. And so sure enough, within three

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months, I was in Mexico. And then I was in Fiji.

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And then I was in the Philippines and Uganda.

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So I began all these travels to these countries.

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And in between there, I would have my students.

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And so if I was going to be gone a week, I'd

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say, hey, you get an extra week to practice.

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And then a couple of my students wanted to be

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teachers. So, okay. They're like, can you teach

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us how to teach? I'm like, because when I'm gone,

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they can teach for me, you know? Perfect. Well,

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then in 2012, we hosted the World Championships

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for accordion in Spokane. Wow. And so they all

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will come in. It's the first time U .S. had ever

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hosted it. And so now we've got 40 countries

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represented. And so we had the airport runs,

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the judges coming in, the candidates, because

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there was one representative from each country.

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So we had the Chinese candidate. We also have

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the Chinese judge. Even Chinese, the accordion

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in China? It's huge in Chinese. Is it? Wow. About

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15 years ago, China had over 10 ,000 accordion

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orchestras. What? Yes. Oh, my goodness. Yeah,

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it was huge. I was over there judging several

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years ago. And for three days, I judged 11 -year

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-olds for three days. Oh, my. 10 to 11 -year

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-olds. And they were good. Wow. And I'm thinking,

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I never knew there were so many 10 to 11 -year

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-olds playing the accordion over here. Wow. So,

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yeah, so I was traveling and then ended up just

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strictly just my little studio, you know. Then

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after this champion, after the world champion

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Spokane, one of the judges came up to me. He's

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like, hey, I'd like to move to Spokane and teach

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with you. And I'm like, oh, you know, so kind.

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And that's OK. No, no, it's just I just have

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a few students, you know. And he said, no, no,

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I'm serious. The month later, he emails me and

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says, hey, I'm serious about coming to the U

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.S. You know, you wouldn't have to do anything.

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I mean, I'll have my lawyer do all the paperwork.

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I just want to come teach for you, you know,

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with you. And I'm thinking, and I didn't know

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how to say no. You know, I had still that part

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of me, you know, I'm like, well, and it's like,

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you know, and it's just kind of pushed it off.

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Within a third time, he says. Let's Skype together.

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Back then it was Skype, not Zoom. Imagining how

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old I am now, I was like, oh yeah, Skype. That

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was back in the olden days. Anyway, so I get

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on the call. Of course, now we're face -to -face.

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And he said, tell you what, there's no money

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you need to put out. You just need to sign the

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paperwork. And I said, are you really serious

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about this? And he said, yes, I want to come

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teach. So I'm thinking, okay. I'm thinking, you

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know, two master teachers? you know, we could

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really build this, you know, I built it for mine.

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So I'm trying back and forth. I'm like, okay,

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as long as I, you know, don't have to fund, you

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know, any money, then I'll sign the paperwork.

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So I signed the paperwork. So he comes and flies

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to the US and I told him, be sure you have at

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least three months of finances because it'll

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probably take that long to build students up,

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right? So he comes, flies in and brings his wife.

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Comes to the studio two days later, and he says,

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okay, where's all my students? Uh -oh. I say,

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well, we've got to build them, but I wasn't planning

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for you to come for another week. I could let

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you get settled in. He said, oh, no, they're

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already bringing the furniture. We stopped at

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this place, picked this up. The highest, I mean,

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expensive furniture, and he chose the most expensive

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part of Spokane. So I'm thinking, hang on, wait

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a minute, how much do you think you're going

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to make out of all this? So I was a little bit

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taken back. I'm thinking, okay, did you bring

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like three months of finances with you? He said,

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well, kind of, but let's just get started because

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I need to start making money because I got to

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pay off this furniture. Oh, my goodness. So I'm

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thinking, oh, my goodness. So I thought, well,

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okay, we'll just hand it over my students to

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him. So at least he's teaching and I can be out

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drumming up business. Now, here's the problem.

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Uh -oh. I was a musician. I'm a music teacher.

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I hung up flyers. I, you know, mailed postcards

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out thinking this would be easy, you know, easy

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enough to bring students. Not a single student.

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And then every now and then I'd get a phone call.

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And I'm thinking, this is it. I'd answer it.

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And my little studio was called Able to Play

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because, you know, we're able to help people

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play. And they'd be like, hey, is this Able to

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Play? And I said, yeah. And so he said, well,

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I'm from the school and football. We're just

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looking for a sponsor. I'm thinking, yeah, I

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saw your listing there. And he said, by the way,

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what are you, I mean, is it for soccer? What

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is it, able to play what? And I thought, wow,

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marketing mistake 101. People didn't even know

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what I was. So we changed it, able to play music.

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Well, and in studio. So then it was this crazy

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thing. So what happened was there was so much

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money going out and not enough coming in. Because

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I was paying, because I put him on salary because

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there was not enough students, you know, to figure

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we could build this up really quickly. Well,

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me and mathematics didn't quite work out. Oh,

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no. And I knew there was more. Now, mathematics

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was not my forte, but I did know when one group

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of numbers is bigger than another group of numbers.

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Clearly, the money that was going out was different

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than the money that was coming in. In fact, I

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was like, we're not even clearing. We're not

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even clearing. So I'm thinking, you know, the

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little savings I had was diminishing. And thinking,

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I was walking down the hallway and thinking,

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God, I've got to close this, you know, because

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I don't know what else to do. And so this teacher,

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this international teacher, well, he had to go

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back because his wife won the green card, the

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lottery, the green card lottery in our country.

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So they fly back. And so meanwhile, I get to

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teach my students. And I'm finding some holes

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in their pedagogy education. I'm thinking, oh,

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interesting. Not big holes, but enough that the

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passion was dwindling. And the whole thing for

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me is about music, the love for music, the love

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to play. It was never a forced thing. So he comes

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back. you know, big presence kind of guy, nice

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guy. Anyway, so we're talking and he said, okay,

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tell me about the students. And I said, hey,

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this is what, you know, I'm looking at. And I

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said, hey, do you mind if we, you know, coach

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you a little bit? You know, there's some things

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I'm looking for, you know, obviously the passion.

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He's listening. He heard it all. And he said,

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well, Patricia, I just wanted to say thank you

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for everything, but I'm going to move my wife

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and I are headed to Florida. And she's pregnant.

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She was pregnant when they came. Oh. But never

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said anything. I'm like, oh, so now I'm in the

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hole. Now he's leaving. And so I've got to pick

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up all these pieces. And so I'm thinking, and

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still now the debt was so much. And I'm trying

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to put things together. Didn't even have $100

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in my name. Oh, my. So I'm looking, scrolling

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through Facebook. That's one of the times I was

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so grateful I saw an ad. And it said, world -class

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marketing. And I thought, that's what it is.

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I need marketing because I don't know anything,

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obviously, about how to market because I can't

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even attract a student for this guy. And so I

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fill it out and I'm reading like it was as if

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it was written just for me. It's like, how did

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they know this about me? Wow. And so I flip it

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over, fill out the form, and then it gets to

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the payment. Uh -oh. $10 ,000. Oh, no. Not that.

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Oh. Oh, well. It's like, is that an error there?

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So I'm thinking, OK, so I closed it up and went

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to sleep that night. And I thought, so God, how

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do I do this? I don't know which way to turn,

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you know. And by the way, this was your idea

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because I wanted to quit teaching. But every

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time I would, he'd bring it back. So and so now

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I'm throwing it back to God. I'm like, hey, remember,

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this was your idea. It wasn't ever my dream.

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because I loved performing and now the ministry

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is going. And so I'm teaching on the side in

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a sense. It is my income, but it's still on the

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side. And so I remembered I got this manila envelope

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in the mail two weeks prior and I had thought

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it was my sheet music. And for a thing I was

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going to play. And so I'm like, ah. So you didn't

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open it for a while. I didn't open it. We know

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how that is. Yeah. So now let me back up just

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a little bit. Because the key to this story is

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that there was a lady. Her name is Elizabeth

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Welty. And I met her. She was 92 years old at

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the time when I first met her. And we would go

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to lunch every three months. And she'd get an

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update on what I was doing. She was not a believer.

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She was a doctor. And she would tell me, my science

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mind just cannot grasp what you're learning.

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You know, I was learning about the mountain of

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God. I had told her everything, especially since

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she wasn't a believer. But she's like, if anybody

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else told me these supernatural things that you're

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telling me, I wouldn't believe them. But because

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it's you, I'm intrigued. But my science part

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of my mind is like. And so anyway, so she sponsored

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a couple of my students. We just had this beautiful

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friendship. And she's now 100 years old. And

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we're still going to lunches. But this time she's

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blind, mostly deaf. And now I'm in the middle

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of this crisis. Like, don't know which way my

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little studio's going. And I didn't have the

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heart to tell her. So we talked about other things.

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And then all of a sudden, before she left, she

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put her hand on my arm. And she said, Patricia,

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everything's going to be all right. And I thought,

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if you only knew. If you only knew what I was

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going through. At the same time, I was growing

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in the things of the Lord, my understanding.

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And yet, over on this side, everything looks

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like it's falling to pieces. Anyway, I got to

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see her like just four days before she passed

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away. And anyway, just that special connection

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there. And so now, here I am. I got this rehearsal

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to go to. And this manila envelope. Flip it over.

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I was like, grab my music. Obviously, I didn't

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practice for the rehearsal. Grab my music. This

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envelope. Rip it open. And it's not my music.

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Oh. It's from a lawyer's office. And I'm thinking,

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you know how the mind defaults to the negative?

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Sure. It's like, oh my goodness, did I forget

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to pay a bill? Is somebody suing me? I've never

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seen legal writing like that. And I was reading

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so fast, I had to read it a few times and slow

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down. Like, what is this? And then all of a sudden,

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I flipped the pages a couple, and there was a

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little handwritten note. And it said, it's not

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much, but it will help. Signed, Dr. Elizabeth

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Welty. She had left me in her will. Wow. And

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it was just enough to attend a Tony Robbins business

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mastery that I had seen on Facebook. Oh, wow.

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And I knew as soon as I saw that what it was

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to be used for. Wow. I called that organization

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up. I said, I want to register. And they're like.

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Are you sure? Usually people go to this other

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conference of his before this. I said, no, it's

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this one. I have to do this one. So I get there

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and what I learned, because they said if, you

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know, every day you'll learn about a million

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dollars worth of information that you can implement.

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And if you don't feel like you've got a million

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dollars worth of stuff that you can use, you

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can be completely refunded after day one. So

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I'm like, okay. So I headed there and I just

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had implemented just a few things when I got

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home. And it turned my business from being in

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the hole to a six -figure business. Wow. Because

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I went from being a music teacher to a business

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owner. Okay. Because as Tony Robbins, he lays

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it out, business, you've got to know all the

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pieces and the rules. Once you know that, then

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it's all strategy. And I loved strategy because

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of how my mind worked and stuff. And then as

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I began to grow in the world of business, then

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I understood the marketing. I also understood

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about manipulation and realized how much we are

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manipulated. Exactly. And just like, okay, it's

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like, wow, you can take one thing to manipulate

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people. And I thought, wow, this is how people

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are deceived. Right. And so, which also gave

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me actually more forethought in what I'm hearing

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because then I wasn't, because I never, I was

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always afraid of being deceived. You know, like

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what if, you know, I don't know, whatever. And

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realizing, well, actually the Holy Spirit is

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the one that gives us that witness. Right. You

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know, just like, okay. And I did take a lot of

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body language. how to sign NDAs because once

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they teach you certain body languages that people

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just don't know they don't or they cannot control

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then you can understand if they're being honest

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with you on all these things just because as

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a business woman I was like okay I need to make

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sure I'm you know understand these things But

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as the Holy Spirit began to step in more and

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more, I realized you're the one that actually

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brings that discernment. You know that inside

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you get that red flag of that. So I began then

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needing more and more discernment because now

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as I'm walking into the business world, into

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entrepreneurship, there's a lot of marketers

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that want to sell you in their stuff. And I thought,

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okay, now that I'm understanding as a whole nother

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world. But I loved it. It was as if it was another

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home. You know, I had my music home, but now

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here's the business. And I knew that God didn't

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teach me all those tools for me, that I've been

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able to help many other businesses grow and flourish.

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And so then that birthed the online school. So

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I've got an online school for accordion, kind

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of more of a passive income. And now it's not

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Able to Play Music, but it's Bartel Music Academy.

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So now people know exactly what I do, what I

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teach. So getting to serve those families, the

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online community. And then as I'm coming into

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the Hebrew teachings, I'm teaching biblical Hebrew.

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And then I have my personal brand, which is I

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help business owners grow through speaking. And

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speaking not only for, let's say, the podcast

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like this, but also on camera. So I studied a

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lot with video. So that's the part that connects

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me more to business owners. So bringing all that

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full circle to all the things that God's brought

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me into, not for me per se, but is to see, number

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one, that he will bless the works of your hand.

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And then through Sister Gwen, the 12 tribes of

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Israel, I found out I was from the tribe of Joseph.

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who held all the finances. Well, there you go.

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And it made sense when I learned that, how the

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money and understanding finances worked. I'm

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thinking, now I know where I get this part of

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me. And in the business world. So it's been just

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such an amazing journey to see how God brought

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that, that is so parallel also to my music world.

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So they kind of blend within each other. Wow.

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That is absolutely amazing. So how did God connect

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you to Bruce Allen? Oh, yes. So I tried to go

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to Bible school three times. After I had my encounter

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with God when I was 21, when I went to the Healing

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Crusade. Then I finally, this was the third Bible

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school I got to finally get into, at least for

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a few months. It was Heart for the Nation, so

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Chip and Jerry Foster. And they had told me,

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they said, hey, there's going to be a special

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speaker tonight. I'm going to speak on the Holy

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Spirit. But just know that if he speaks a word

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over you, he's a prophet. So just know that his

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words are dead accurate. I'm thinking, okay,

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this will be interesting. And so I'm still new

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to the things of the law. I mean, I understand

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prophetic words and all these things. So Bruce

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comes in. And you have to understand, I only

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knew of ministry to be very reverent. very serious.

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Ties, you know, suits and ties, all that kind

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of stuff, right? Here comes, walks in Bruce with

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his jeans and cowboy boots. And I'm thinking,

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okay, that's not quite what I imagined. But his

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words carried so much weight when he spoke. And

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I thought, this is so cool. And then he had me

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stand up. And I don't actually remember the word,

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but I just remember the weightiness of it. And

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then Jerry, the head of the school, later that

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evening turned to me and he said, I just want

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you to tell you what Bruce told me about you.

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And I said, yeah. He said, well, it was more

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for me than it was for you. But he said, watch

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over her. She's got a calling on her life, but

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she needs to be surrounded. Just keep an eye

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on her. And he's like. Yes, sir, because he was,

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you know, being in the military. And so that

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was the beginning of how I met Bruce. And then

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we were at a ministry conference and he was speaking.

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And by now I kind of started to get to know different

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ministries as I was, you know, at church, church,

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looking for God. And so here he is again. And

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I thought it was funny because I'm thinking,

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how do these ministries connect to each other?

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Like they go to dinner. What did they talk about?

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You know, because it's like, how does this all

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happen? So I went up to Bruce. I said, Bruce,

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would it be all right if I go to dinner with

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you guys? I mean, I don't want to ask anything.

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I just kind of want to be like a fly on the wall.

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And he laughed. He's like, sure, come on, you

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know. And so that was the door opening. And then

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later I met him and his friend John. And so he

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said, hey, come to coffee with us. I was like,

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sure. You know, so getting to go to coffee. And

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so here's Bruce on my right side and here's John

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on the left. And they're just carrying on. back

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and forth joking and thinking, boy, talk about

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shattering my perspective of what religion is,

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you know, or ministry is. Kind of like Bill Johnson,

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you know, before he, is that Bill Johnson? Reading,

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gets up to speak and tells a joke. Every time.

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Every time. Bruce is very down to earth for people

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who don't know him. He's very down to earth and

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he's very funny. Yeah, he's got a great sense

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of humor. So that's all I'm hearing is all these

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things. However, they would, you know, slip in

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different things of the amazing things of God.

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You know, so I'm like combining it and I'm so

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drawn in. I'm excited and thinking, wait a minute,

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I wonder if they would know the answer to the

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question I have. Because I've had all these questions,

00:24:00.099 --> 00:24:02.779
but nobody can answer me, right? So, and I would

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ask different pastors and like, you know, I think

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I said earlier that they would tell me you've

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experienced more of God than we have as pastors.

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So come share in our church. Thinking, no, that's

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not what I was looking for. I just wanted to

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know more about the anointing, about the power

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of God and his presence. So I'm sitting there

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with Bruce and John. And I was like, okay. I

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said, Bruce, and I'm sure he gets this a hundred

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times over and over, can I ask you a question?

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And he's like, sure. And I said, so I'm leaning

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in. I'm thinking, cool, they're going to answer

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my question. And I said, What's the secret to

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the anointing? And he looks at John. He said,

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do you think she's ready? And John's like, well,

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I don't know. And now I'm leaning in. Right,

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right. Like, am I ready? And so, you know, we've

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got a cup of coffee in front of all of us. And

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they lean in. It's like, okay. Yeah, I think

00:25:01.130 --> 00:25:03.670
she's ready. So we lean in. I'm thinking, here

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it is. Here it is. And he said, it's in the mocha.

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And he points to his mug. Sounds like Mama Jenkins.

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I was like, seriously? It's in the mocha. It's

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in the mocha, you know. And I thought, oh my

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goodness. And then I'm like, I cannot wait to

00:25:25.480 --> 00:25:29.500
see you preach. Because it's like this and my

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idea of what ministry. And so that night he spoke

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and the holiness of God hit. I mean, you could

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have heard a pen drop. It had nothing to do with

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mocha. No, not at all. But there was this friendship

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that developed, and he just took me under his

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wing as a big brother. And he would tell me,

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he said, the difference between you and I is

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I've been outdoing. He said, now it's your turn

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to go out and do. And so he would, I would take

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notes. I would go to wherever he was preaching

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and I would just take notes. And so, so many

00:26:03.019 --> 00:26:05.519
of the things he said back then, he's still saying

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them today because truth can be repeated. It

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never gets old. And I hear it differently now

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that I'm, you know, maturing in the things of

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the Lord. And so he's been that big brother to

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me. And even more so in these last, has it been

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what, three years now? Because... Bruce, in the

00:26:23.960 --> 00:26:27.779
ministry part, he would push me out of the nest.

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Like, okay, here's the microphone. You've got

00:26:30.839 --> 00:26:34.660
a word. I said, I do? Right. But he began to

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teach me how to pray for people and those things

00:26:37.960 --> 00:26:40.079
out in the ministry world. So that's why I've

00:26:40.079 --> 00:26:42.839
just said he's been my big brother, taking me

00:26:42.839 --> 00:26:45.079
through that and just allowing me to see the

00:26:45.079 --> 00:26:47.599
behind the scenes and never to be afraid to ask

00:26:47.599 --> 00:26:51.869
a question because that's how you learn. And

00:26:51.869 --> 00:26:54.630
I got to meet him then, actually before he met

00:26:54.630 --> 00:26:57.470
Rashma. Oh, really? And that was really sweet.

00:26:57.609 --> 00:26:59.349
Oh, that's fun. Because when we were there on

00:26:59.349 --> 00:27:01.210
the mission trip, he pulled me aside. He said,

00:27:01.269 --> 00:27:03.269
I know I didn't tell you about her, but this

00:27:03.269 --> 00:27:06.470
is who she is. And I'm thinking, this is so cool,

00:27:06.529 --> 00:27:08.869
you know, just to see that and be at their wedding

00:27:08.869 --> 00:27:13.069
and just watch their journey together. Yeah,

00:27:13.150 --> 00:27:16.329
that was the part of how I first met Bruce. Okay.

00:27:16.809 --> 00:27:23.410
Okay. So in the meantime. Bruce has gotten you

00:27:23.410 --> 00:27:26.750
traveling with him and Reshma to do some of these

00:27:26.750 --> 00:27:29.589
schools around the world. And he invited you

00:27:29.589 --> 00:27:32.849
to go with him to Australia. Then what happened?

00:27:33.269 --> 00:27:36.809
Yes, then what happened? So about seven or eight

00:27:36.809 --> 00:27:39.710
years ago, I had a dream that in this dream was

00:27:39.710 --> 00:27:44.089
a kangaroo. And the ground had... like that reddish

00:27:44.089 --> 00:27:47.930
dirt in it. And behind the kangaroo in this open

00:27:47.930 --> 00:27:50.410
meadow was this fence, this wooden fence that

00:27:50.410 --> 00:27:52.829
had two rungs on it. And then beyond that was

00:27:52.829 --> 00:27:55.089
like this mountain, these trees kind of thing,

00:27:55.170 --> 00:27:57.789
you know. And in the dream, I just remember how

00:27:57.789 --> 00:28:01.349
cool it was to be so close to a kangaroo, you

00:28:01.349 --> 00:28:03.609
know. And that was it. That was pretty much,

00:28:03.670 --> 00:28:05.890
it was another kangaroo that was eating or just

00:28:05.890 --> 00:28:08.049
kind of kneeling down. And so I never knew what

00:28:08.049 --> 00:28:10.089
that dream meant. And, you know, just kind of

00:28:10.089 --> 00:28:13.169
like, hmm, okay. And that was it to that. So

00:28:13.169 --> 00:28:16.670
Bruce had invited me to be on the school, on

00:28:16.670 --> 00:28:19.829
the school. So now here's where we were in San,

00:28:19.970 --> 00:28:23.049
what was that? San Jose in May. And then we went

00:28:23.049 --> 00:28:26.769
to Des Moines, Iowa in June. And now here it

00:28:26.769 --> 00:28:29.130
is July. And he said, Patricia, we're headed

00:28:29.130 --> 00:28:31.890
to Australia. Do you want to go? I said, sure,

00:28:32.029 --> 00:28:35.470
I can go. And all of a sudden I remember that

00:28:35.470 --> 00:28:38.509
dream because I had never connected kangaroos

00:28:38.509 --> 00:28:41.710
with Australia. Okay. So thinking. there's got

00:28:41.710 --> 00:28:44.650
to be a connection you know so let me back up

00:28:44.650 --> 00:28:48.390
so why there was things become alive that week

00:28:49.049 --> 00:28:52.910
was two years prior to that, I had met this group

00:28:52.910 --> 00:28:56.529
of entrepreneurs in business from all over the

00:28:56.529 --> 00:28:58.990
world. And we're advisors to each other. So you

00:28:58.990 --> 00:29:00.589
have to have at least a six -figure business

00:29:00.589 --> 00:29:03.950
and above to even be in this group. And we would

00:29:03.950 --> 00:29:06.750
partner up with each other to ask five questions

00:29:06.750 --> 00:29:08.809
about the business, what are you doing, what

00:29:08.809 --> 00:29:12.069
are the ups and downs, and be advisories. I got

00:29:12.069 --> 00:29:15.710
connected with a South African guy. And the connection

00:29:15.710 --> 00:29:18.269
went beyond business, but not into anything.

00:29:18.910 --> 00:29:21.950
So for two years, he would call me his sweetheart.

00:29:22.589 --> 00:29:26.009
And I'm thinking, okay, this must be it. You

00:29:26.009 --> 00:29:29.150
know, because I'd not been in a romantic relationship.

00:29:29.549 --> 00:29:32.730
I was in one when I was, I think, 23, maybe,

00:29:32.789 --> 00:29:35.349
with a guy for three months. It was more of a,

00:29:35.470 --> 00:29:37.329
let's do this. Okay, let's not, because his mother

00:29:37.329 --> 00:29:38.950
stepped in, like, no, no, this is not going to

00:29:38.950 --> 00:29:41.890
work. So here I am. And so getting to know this

00:29:41.890 --> 00:29:44.589
guy and thinking, okay, this is really cool,

00:29:44.710 --> 00:29:48.059
South Africa. But then it got to be a journey

00:29:48.059 --> 00:29:50.680
that was not a good journey. Let's put it that

00:29:50.680 --> 00:29:55.859
way. And so finally. Two years later, Bruce and

00:29:55.859 --> 00:29:58.940
Rashma walked through this with me because for

00:29:58.940 --> 00:30:03.039
me to realize a guy had been leading me on and

00:30:03.039 --> 00:30:05.880
I'm thinking, you know, this is going to be something.

00:30:05.900 --> 00:30:08.720
But even though he said, we're not friends, but

00:30:08.720 --> 00:30:10.660
we're more than friends, but we're not in a relationship

00:30:10.660 --> 00:30:14.680
and refused to go there. And of course, Bruce

00:30:14.680 --> 00:30:17.339
never would tell me what to do. And, you know,

00:30:17.420 --> 00:30:19.940
even the words of wisdom, he would always tell

00:30:19.940 --> 00:30:22.599
me, he said, you know God's voice. He would always

00:30:22.599 --> 00:30:25.140
encourage me. He said, you know, I will stand

00:30:25.140 --> 00:30:27.920
with you. No matter what, I will stand with you.

00:30:28.099 --> 00:30:31.559
Beautiful. And that was him as a big brother

00:30:31.559 --> 00:30:35.579
to me. That's great wisdom. And so now, there

00:30:35.579 --> 00:30:38.019
was November. Not last year, but the year before.

00:30:38.160 --> 00:30:40.980
November. And Bruce and Reshma are doing a school

00:30:40.980 --> 00:30:44.000
in Spokane. And I have my filming equipment because

00:30:44.000 --> 00:30:46.160
I have my own filming studios. I brought my gear

00:30:46.160 --> 00:30:48.980
down to go to film the school. And so Michael

00:30:48.980 --> 00:30:51.359
Van Ryman is with them. And so I get to hang

00:30:51.359 --> 00:30:55.220
out with Michael a bit. And Bruce says, hey,

00:30:55.279 --> 00:30:57.599
come up to the house with us and Michael. And

00:30:57.599 --> 00:31:00.440
so I go up there. And Bruce says, Michael, tell

00:31:00.440 --> 00:31:03.940
her what the Lord told you. And Michael's like,

00:31:04.059 --> 00:31:06.140
Bruce, you know I don't speak about these things.

00:31:07.259 --> 00:31:10.619
I can see him saying that. And he said, Michael,

00:31:11.079 --> 00:31:14.339
she needs it. She needs it. And because Michael

00:31:14.339 --> 00:31:17.019
didn't know what I was going through. It's just

00:31:17.019 --> 00:31:18.660
a heartache after another because I couldn't

00:31:18.660 --> 00:31:20.900
break off from this guy because there was too

00:31:20.900 --> 00:31:22.660
many things tied because with our businesses

00:31:22.660 --> 00:31:24.740
helping each other out. And I just didn't know

00:31:24.740 --> 00:31:26.920
how to let it go because this guy went from having

00:31:26.920 --> 00:31:29.539
four businesses, South African guy, four business,

00:31:29.700 --> 00:31:32.119
studying to be a pilot to get his pilot license,

00:31:32.460 --> 00:31:36.140
to down to his one business, barely surviving.

00:31:36.680 --> 00:31:42.180
And so I was the rescuer. And so now I'm tangled

00:31:42.180 --> 00:31:44.460
and I'm trying to untangle because it's like

00:31:44.460 --> 00:31:46.980
this would be the worst time to just cut it off,

00:31:47.099 --> 00:31:49.920
you know, when you need somebody and not realizing

00:31:49.920 --> 00:31:53.779
that it wasn't my place, you know, but I just,

00:31:53.799 --> 00:31:55.839
I didn't know how to untangle. About your responsibility.

00:31:56.240 --> 00:31:58.779
Right, I felt so responsible. I'm thinking, does

00:31:58.779 --> 00:32:00.640
he have a friend? You know, I don't know, you

00:32:00.640 --> 00:32:04.400
know. Anyway, so I'm here and Bruce is telling

00:32:04.400 --> 00:32:07.519
Michael, tell her. And so Michael's like, okay.

00:32:07.880 --> 00:32:10.740
He said, so. I've been watching you and you're

00:32:10.740 --> 00:32:13.099
helping and all this. And he said, I began to

00:32:13.099 --> 00:32:15.240
pray to the Lord. I said, Lord, can you just

00:32:15.240 --> 00:32:18.759
bring her a husband? Bring her someone. And he

00:32:18.759 --> 00:32:21.500
said, the Lord interrupted him. And he said,

00:32:21.660 --> 00:32:25.660
I have somebody for her who's absolutely perfect.

00:32:26.200 --> 00:32:28.779
And he will be quick to take her off the market.

00:32:30.429 --> 00:32:33.529
And I'm thinking, this guy, South African guy,

00:32:33.609 --> 00:32:35.230
that's been two years, that must not be him.

00:32:35.670 --> 00:32:39.029
So that was November. So now February, this guy

00:32:39.029 --> 00:32:42.730
decides that we're done. There's too much pressure.

00:32:42.950 --> 00:32:44.730
Because I'm like, come on, guy, we're either

00:32:44.730 --> 00:32:46.450
going to do this or we're not. And he's like,

00:32:46.470 --> 00:32:49.369
too much pressure. Let's just agree to be friends.

00:32:49.630 --> 00:32:52.190
And I'm like, we can't be friends. It's too much.

00:32:52.690 --> 00:32:55.809
So then I find out a week later, he fully committed

00:32:55.809 --> 00:32:59.869
to another person. And my heart was broken. I'm

00:32:59.869 --> 00:33:02.049
sure. Because I felt betrayed. Shattered. Yeah,

00:33:02.069 --> 00:33:07.750
totally. So now that was February. So I am month

00:33:07.750 --> 00:33:10.950
after month. And I remember the boards of Bruce.

00:33:11.049 --> 00:33:13.109
He told me, he said, remember, you choose how

00:33:13.109 --> 00:33:16.029
long you walk through that season. Oh, say that

00:33:16.029 --> 00:33:18.450
again. That's such words of wisdom. You choose.

00:33:18.630 --> 00:33:20.849
Choose how long you walk through that season.

00:33:20.930 --> 00:33:23.630
You choose how long that season is. That grief.

00:33:24.160 --> 00:33:26.680
Yes. Right? That's a grief. That's a serious

00:33:26.680 --> 00:33:30.180
grief. Very much so. And so I'm now knowing,

00:33:30.380 --> 00:33:32.819
having walked through different griefs, thinking,

00:33:32.920 --> 00:33:36.579
okay, Lord, I know as painful as this is right

00:33:36.579 --> 00:33:40.640
now, I'm choosing to look at what is the gift

00:33:40.640 --> 00:33:43.980
in this? What am I learning? This is good. Because

00:33:43.980 --> 00:33:47.640
I can leverage pain that will catapult me to

00:33:47.640 --> 00:33:49.759
the next level. There you go. And that's what

00:33:49.759 --> 00:33:53.579
I did before again and again. Because many times

00:33:53.579 --> 00:33:56.680
the rug has been pulled out. And I'd learn faster

00:33:56.680 --> 00:33:59.119
and faster. But this was a big one. Because this

00:33:59.119 --> 00:34:02.740
was the most tender part of my heart. And so

00:34:02.740 --> 00:34:05.980
as the Lord began to uncover why it was so painful,

00:34:06.200 --> 00:34:10.360
number one was that I hadn't really learned to

00:34:10.360 --> 00:34:14.500
love Patricia. And so I was looking to a man

00:34:14.500 --> 00:34:18.039
to fulfill that deepest need of wanting to be

00:34:18.039 --> 00:34:24.070
loved. And so it took someone in that area. For

00:34:24.070 --> 00:34:25.750
me to finally say, because I'd gone through so

00:34:25.750 --> 00:34:28.170
much inner healing, you know, I'm out speaking

00:34:28.170 --> 00:34:31.090
now, all these things. But I didn't know there

00:34:31.090 --> 00:34:33.130
was still a little thread under there that the

00:34:33.130 --> 00:34:35.530
Lord needed to pull out. Right. And he wants

00:34:35.530 --> 00:34:38.130
you completely whole. Completely. So he used

00:34:38.130 --> 00:34:40.789
the situation because I was asking him like,

00:34:40.889 --> 00:34:43.889
okay, I know. It's like, I know the process now.

00:34:43.969 --> 00:34:46.050
What's the gift in this? What do I need to learn?

00:34:46.130 --> 00:34:48.610
What do I need to deal with? What do I need to

00:34:48.610 --> 00:34:51.550
bring to you, Lord? So this season has cut short.

00:34:52.230 --> 00:34:55.010
And so every day, you know, when you're grieving,

00:34:55.110 --> 00:34:57.550
it's like those waves of that pain that come

00:34:57.550 --> 00:35:01.690
and you can feel it coming. And because I really

00:35:01.690 --> 00:35:03.329
didn't have anybody around me that understood

00:35:03.329 --> 00:35:05.429
what I was walking through other than Bruce and

00:35:05.429 --> 00:35:07.969
Rashma. So I would just go to the bathroom and

00:35:07.969 --> 00:35:10.329
close the door and I would literally hang on

00:35:10.329 --> 00:35:12.949
to the sink because I understood emotions last

00:35:12.949 --> 00:35:15.489
90 seconds. Yeah. You said that in class and

00:35:15.489 --> 00:35:18.820
I hung on to that. I thought. I've got to learn

00:35:18.820 --> 00:35:22.159
that and make it work for me. Yeah. Because scientifically

00:35:22.159 --> 00:35:24.440
they said the emotion, the cycle of an emotion

00:35:24.440 --> 00:35:27.940
is 90 seconds. And so I'm thinking, okay, I can

00:35:27.940 --> 00:35:30.260
hang on for 90 seconds while there's pain. And

00:35:30.260 --> 00:35:33.340
also to let the pain, it's like you breathe it

00:35:33.340 --> 00:35:36.039
in and breathe it through because otherwise it

00:35:36.039 --> 00:35:38.679
gets lodged in, you know? And so I would sit

00:35:38.679 --> 00:35:42.519
there and, but the biggest lesson I learned was

00:35:42.519 --> 00:35:46.510
to surrender. Not my will, but his will be done.

00:35:46.690 --> 00:35:49.670
Yes. Because I had helped try to manufacture

00:35:49.670 --> 00:35:53.130
this relationship. Oh. Because when I was 21

00:35:53.130 --> 00:35:56.210
years old, I had three prophetic words that said,

00:35:56.289 --> 00:35:59.530
you will be married. In fact, one of them, the

00:35:59.530 --> 00:36:01.929
guy said, do you believe it? And I said, yeah.

00:36:02.070 --> 00:36:04.289
He says, no, do you believe it? And then I was

00:36:04.289 --> 00:36:05.869
slain in the spirit. And then he's down there.

00:36:05.929 --> 00:36:08.269
Do you believe it? I'm like, I believe it. I'll

00:36:08.269 --> 00:36:11.219
be married. And that was when I was 21. You know,

00:36:11.260 --> 00:36:15.019
22, 23, nothing happens. 33, 34, nothing happens.

00:36:15.159 --> 00:36:19.219
44, now I'm 45, and this guy enters my life.

00:36:19.480 --> 00:36:21.920
So I'm thinking, maybe this is it. But what was

00:36:21.920 --> 00:36:23.739
happening, I was trying to create an Ishmael.

00:36:25.000 --> 00:36:29.360
And so here it was, and I'm walking through this.

00:36:29.380 --> 00:36:31.360
I'm hanging on to the sink. I said, Lord, not

00:36:31.360 --> 00:36:33.900
my will, your will be done. And as I'm breathing

00:36:33.900 --> 00:36:35.820
through the pain of it, I said, Father, I never

00:36:35.820 --> 00:36:38.360
want to go through that again. That was two years

00:36:38.360 --> 00:36:41.800
of so much pain. And would you be my matchmaker?

00:36:42.199 --> 00:36:46.900
And so week after week, and it got easier and

00:36:46.900 --> 00:36:50.199
easier. And then I was in prayer in July. Now

00:36:50.199 --> 00:36:52.719
this is just before I head to Australia. So here

00:36:52.719 --> 00:36:54.980
I am in the middle of July and I'm in prayer

00:36:54.980 --> 00:36:56.940
with the Lord. And all of a sudden I hear his

00:36:56.940 --> 00:37:00.920
voice and he says, Patricia, your winter is over.

00:37:01.539 --> 00:37:06.639
And everything of that lifted completely. and

00:37:06.639 --> 00:37:09.420
all the healing was like it was instant I was

00:37:09.420 --> 00:37:13.500
like I could love life again I didn't even care

00:37:13.500 --> 00:37:17.050
if I was ever married Or had somebody, you know,

00:37:17.070 --> 00:37:19.289
like that in my life. It's like I could love

00:37:19.289 --> 00:37:21.269
life again. It was like all the color came back

00:37:21.269 --> 00:37:23.389
and, you know, the trees, everything, you know.

00:37:23.429 --> 00:37:25.070
It had been black and white for a while. Oh,

00:37:25.070 --> 00:37:29.429
my goodness, yes. And so now I'm just this happy

00:37:29.429 --> 00:37:32.389
-go -lucky myself again. And Bruce, I was at

00:37:32.389 --> 00:37:34.130
the house a couple weeks before we're leaving.

00:37:34.150 --> 00:37:36.530
He says, you never know, you might meet somebody

00:37:36.530 --> 00:37:39.030
in Australia. And I'm thinking, Bruce, you know,

00:37:39.050 --> 00:37:41.690
my big brother. But I could tell you how healed

00:37:41.690 --> 00:37:43.690
I was that he could tease me about it. Yeah.

00:37:43.809 --> 00:37:46.710
You know, and so I'm like, nah. You know, and

00:37:46.710 --> 00:37:49.349
then the next week, now one week before we leave,

00:37:49.389 --> 00:37:52.130
he says it again. Never know. You might meet

00:37:52.130 --> 00:37:54.630
somebody. And I said, come on, Bruce. We're in

00:37:54.630 --> 00:37:58.710
Australia, you know, kangaroo land. And so we

00:37:58.710 --> 00:38:01.269
get to the airport. You know, we're just freshmen.

00:38:01.309 --> 00:38:03.449
We have all this fun. Tease about chocolate and

00:38:03.449 --> 00:38:07.570
girl stuff, you know. So the first night in Australia,

00:38:07.889 --> 00:38:11.510
I have a dream. And in this dream, it's like

00:38:11.510 --> 00:38:15.650
this TV screen. And one of my friends in the

00:38:15.650 --> 00:38:18.489
speaking world steps in. And he says, Patricia.

00:38:19.360 --> 00:38:22.739
You're about to get married. His name is Issachar,

00:38:22.860 --> 00:38:25.900
a man who knows the times and seasons. And this

00:38:25.900 --> 00:38:28.639
is the call on his life, the prophetic. And he

00:38:28.639 --> 00:38:31.900
began to explain that. I wake up from the dream.

00:38:31.980 --> 00:38:34.940
I'm thinking, oh, my goodness. Wow. So I go down,

00:38:35.019 --> 00:38:37.940
have a coffee with Bruce, you know, getting more

00:38:37.940 --> 00:38:42.099
of the anointing and the mocha. So I'm telling

00:38:42.099 --> 00:38:45.340
Bruce, I said, I have this dream. And so he's

00:38:45.340 --> 00:38:47.000
like, oh, you know, be sure to write it down.

00:38:47.360 --> 00:38:50.019
And then he gives me these words of wisdom. And

00:38:50.019 --> 00:38:51.880
he said, I know you've probably already done

00:38:51.880 --> 00:38:54.380
this, but be sure you've dealt with the sandcastles.

00:38:55.000 --> 00:38:57.860
And I'm thinking, yeah, yeah, okay, done, you

00:38:57.860 --> 00:39:00.599
know. And so I go back to my room that night

00:39:00.599 --> 00:39:02.519
and I'm going to go before the Lord because anytime

00:39:02.519 --> 00:39:06.079
something is brought up. I'm quick to go and

00:39:06.079 --> 00:39:08.099
deal with it before the Lord because I don't

00:39:08.099 --> 00:39:10.619
want any hindrances. That is a good secret. So

00:39:10.619 --> 00:39:12.139
I'm coming up. It's like, Lord, I want to talk

00:39:12.139 --> 00:39:13.440
to you about these sandcastles. I want to make

00:39:13.440 --> 00:39:15.159
sure those are dealt with. And then I'm like,

00:39:15.300 --> 00:39:20.980
what are sandcastles? What do you mean? I don't

00:39:20.980 --> 00:39:23.579
know what he actually meant by that because I

00:39:23.579 --> 00:39:26.480
thought I did. And then I did. So the next morning,

00:39:26.559 --> 00:39:30.179
coffee. I'm like. Bruce, what are sandcastles?

00:39:31.500 --> 00:39:34.599
And he laughed. He's so kind with me. And he

00:39:34.599 --> 00:39:38.119
says, in very plain language, sandcastles are

00:39:38.119 --> 00:39:40.679
those things you make up in your mind like fantasies.

00:39:40.679 --> 00:39:42.760
He said, we all do it. You know, the fantasies

00:39:42.760 --> 00:39:44.739
that, you know, he's got to be this big, this

00:39:44.739 --> 00:39:47.119
tall, this, you know, tall, dark, handsome kind

00:39:47.119 --> 00:39:50.840
of thing. And I thought, well, I don't think

00:39:50.840 --> 00:39:54.199
I had any sandcastles. But then as I began to

00:39:54.199 --> 00:39:56.039
think about it, it's like I didn't previously

00:39:56.039 --> 00:39:59.650
to this. the South African guy. But now I'm like,

00:39:59.690 --> 00:40:01.769
you're right. When I look at a guy, he's like,

00:40:01.869 --> 00:40:03.750
oh, that's what I'm attracted to because that's

00:40:03.750 --> 00:40:05.289
what I was attracted to in the South African

00:40:05.289 --> 00:40:08.250
guy. You know, the dark hair, very muscular alpha

00:40:08.250 --> 00:40:13.369
guy. And so I said, oh, okay. So I go back to

00:40:13.369 --> 00:40:16.809
my room that night and I repent of the sandcastles

00:40:16.809 --> 00:40:19.949
in my mind. And so it's like, Lord, I don't care

00:40:19.949 --> 00:40:21.860
what he looks like. please make him handsome.

00:40:22.099 --> 00:40:26.099
I don't care what he looks like. And so I laid

00:40:26.099 --> 00:40:29.099
it on the altar because I said, Lord, you told

00:40:29.099 --> 00:40:31.579
me I would be married someday. So, and now I

00:40:31.579 --> 00:40:33.300
have this dream that I'm going to be married.

00:40:33.579 --> 00:40:36.039
And so I just like, I just lay it all down. I

00:40:36.039 --> 00:40:37.739
don't know what all that looks like, but okay.

00:40:38.300 --> 00:40:41.880
So then Monday comes the first day of the translation

00:40:41.880 --> 00:40:45.400
by faith school. And this young man, young Shane.

00:40:45.949 --> 00:40:49.110
walks in and Bruce has seen him at other conferences,

00:40:49.170 --> 00:40:51.730
but Shane comes in and he was early and he's

00:40:51.730 --> 00:40:53.670
like, oh, there's Bruce. So he goes to shake

00:40:53.670 --> 00:40:55.690
his hand and just say, hey, you know, thank you

00:40:55.690 --> 00:40:58.210
for coming. We've been fasting and praying, you

00:40:58.210 --> 00:41:00.670
know, for the school in this time. And Bruce,

00:41:00.769 --> 00:41:03.650
as soon as he shakes Shane's hands, the Lord

00:41:03.650 --> 00:41:07.130
tells him, this is him. Oh, wow. Wow. And Bruce

00:41:07.130 --> 00:41:11.550
is like, oh, like it's him. You know that, well,

00:41:11.610 --> 00:41:14.710
this is going to be an interesting week. And

00:41:14.710 --> 00:41:16.849
so because now he's going to be keeping an eye

00:41:16.849 --> 00:41:18.989
on me and he's going to be keeping an eye on

00:41:18.989 --> 00:41:21.349
Shane. Right. Like, okay, this is going to be

00:41:21.349 --> 00:41:23.670
like, how's this going to work? And long story

00:41:23.670 --> 00:41:26.989
short, I leave on a Saturday. So Shane had asked

00:41:26.989 --> 00:41:28.489
me like, hey, when are you leaving? We had like

00:41:28.489 --> 00:41:30.289
two or three times I got to talk just for a couple

00:41:30.289 --> 00:41:32.989
of minutes in the breaks. And like I do with

00:41:32.989 --> 00:41:34.389
all the students, you know, I check in with the

00:41:34.389 --> 00:41:36.250
students, how they're doing and the activations

00:41:36.250 --> 00:41:39.530
and different things. And so he'd said, so when

00:41:39.530 --> 00:41:41.070
are you leaving? I'm like, Saturday, I'm heading

00:41:41.070 --> 00:41:44.199
to Sydney to visit a couple of friends. But they're

00:41:44.199 --> 00:41:46.360
still working out transportation because, you

00:41:46.360 --> 00:41:47.639
know, Bruce and Reshma are leaving a couple of

00:41:47.639 --> 00:41:50.119
days later. And I'm thinking, why am I telling

00:41:50.119 --> 00:41:53.619
him this part? And he says, oh, you know what?

00:41:53.699 --> 00:41:56.159
The airport is on my way home. I'll just drop

00:41:56.159 --> 00:41:57.980
you off, you know, if you need, you know. And

00:41:57.980 --> 00:42:00.159
I said, oh, thank you. I'll let our host know.

00:42:00.639 --> 00:42:04.300
And so in his mind, he's like. What did I just

00:42:04.300 --> 00:42:06.500
do? I just offered Bruce's little sister a ride,

00:42:06.599 --> 00:42:08.960
you know, and he runs to the house. Hey, make

00:42:08.960 --> 00:42:11.380
sure she feels comfortable. I didn't even realize

00:42:11.380 --> 00:42:13.340
what I was offering, but I just want you to know

00:42:13.340 --> 00:42:16.059
it's there, you know, just if you need it, you

00:42:16.059 --> 00:42:19.179
know, so totally fine if you don't. So at dinner

00:42:19.179 --> 00:42:23.179
table, we're eating and I tell them and Anna,

00:42:23.280 --> 00:42:26.360
our host, and Reshma are sitting there and they're

00:42:26.360 --> 00:42:28.079
like, no, no, no, you don't need to go with this

00:42:28.079 --> 00:42:31.199
guy just for logistics reasons. And I said, no,

00:42:31.260 --> 00:42:33.639
it's fine, you know, and they're like, no, no,

00:42:33.679 --> 00:42:35.579
no. And of course, Rashma comes, you know, from

00:42:35.579 --> 00:42:38.219
the Indian Fijian background that in her culture,

00:42:38.380 --> 00:42:41.860
you're never a young woman, single woman is never

00:42:41.860 --> 00:42:44.639
alone with a single guy, you know, or without

00:42:44.639 --> 00:42:47.179
a brother or father there. And I'm thinking,

00:42:47.239 --> 00:42:50.059
number one, I didn't know he was single, you

00:42:50.059 --> 00:42:52.699
know, thinking so. But I was thinking, okay.

00:42:53.239 --> 00:42:55.519
You didn't even know he was single. I didn't

00:42:55.519 --> 00:42:59.300
know, you know, but I was. They didn't know actually.

00:42:59.460 --> 00:43:01.619
So it was funny because they're going back and

00:43:01.619 --> 00:43:03.840
forth and saying, Patricia, don't do this. You

00:43:03.840 --> 00:43:05.780
don't need to feel like it. And finally, here's

00:43:05.780 --> 00:43:08.380
Bruce at the table also eating, but his head

00:43:08.380 --> 00:43:10.579
is down and he's just listening to all of us.

00:43:10.739 --> 00:43:13.380
And I said, Bruce, Shane has offered me a ride

00:43:13.380 --> 00:43:16.239
to the airport. And Bruce just looks up and he

00:43:16.239 --> 00:43:19.440
says, he's a nice guy. And then proceeds back.

00:43:19.719 --> 00:43:22.079
head down, continue eating. I think we were eating

00:43:22.079 --> 00:43:24.380
soup or something. And I looked at that. I'm

00:43:24.380 --> 00:43:26.780
like, he's not concerned at all. So I'm like,

00:43:26.840 --> 00:43:28.860
okay. So they're talking. And he knew something.

00:43:29.000 --> 00:43:31.820
And he knew something. And so they're carrying

00:43:31.820 --> 00:43:34.019
on. And then all of a sudden they said, well,

00:43:34.139 --> 00:43:36.039
we don't, you know, no single guy, you know,

00:43:36.039 --> 00:43:37.840
you don't go with them like that. I'm like, is

00:43:37.840 --> 00:43:40.900
he single? And then Bruce looked up and he said,

00:43:41.000 --> 00:43:43.699
yes, he's single. And then I was like, well,

00:43:43.739 --> 00:43:45.400
then maybe I shouldn't, you know, cause I'm not

00:43:45.400 --> 00:43:48.019
going to put myself in a situation. Now what's

00:43:48.019 --> 00:43:51.440
funny. is that we have no idea how Bruce knew

00:43:51.440 --> 00:43:53.760
he was single. Yeah. Because he really didn't

00:43:53.760 --> 00:43:57.300
know Shane. Oh. So, yeah, that was an interesting

00:43:57.300 --> 00:43:59.960
moment, I'm thinking. Anyway, so we're like,

00:44:00.019 --> 00:44:02.679
okay, so Shane and I, he takes me to the airport,

00:44:02.800 --> 00:44:07.019
and Bruce escorts me to the car. Shane has this

00:44:07.019 --> 00:44:10.300
white car and opens the door and says, your chariot

00:44:10.300 --> 00:44:13.780
awaits. Oh, wow. And Shane, also operating in

00:44:13.780 --> 00:44:15.719
the prophetic, felt the weight of those words.

00:44:16.250 --> 00:44:18.130
And he's like, wait, what? And he's like, no,

00:44:18.170 --> 00:44:20.289
no. And so he kind of shook it off. So we get

00:44:20.289 --> 00:44:22.849
in the car and I had asked Shane earlier in the

00:44:22.849 --> 00:44:24.429
school, like, cause we were talking about our

00:44:24.429 --> 00:44:27.190
stories and he said, yeah, my story is too long

00:44:27.190 --> 00:44:29.269
to explain in two, three minutes. I'm like, okay.

00:44:29.570 --> 00:44:31.869
So we're getting in the car. I turned to him

00:44:31.869 --> 00:44:34.230
and cause you know, in Australia, they drive

00:44:34.230 --> 00:44:36.769
on the opposite side of the vehicle, opposite

00:44:36.769 --> 00:44:39.250
side of the road. And they said, we have an hour

00:44:39.250 --> 00:44:42.510
to the airport. Tell me your story. And so he's

00:44:42.510 --> 00:44:45.059
like, okay. So he starts to tell me his story

00:44:45.059 --> 00:44:47.639
and then he started tearing up a little bit and

00:44:47.639 --> 00:44:49.659
he just touched my hand, like, you know, just

00:44:49.659 --> 00:44:52.059
the top of my hand and just to say, Hey, you

00:44:52.059 --> 00:44:54.400
might see some tears, but just know it's okay.

00:44:54.800 --> 00:44:57.900
Yeah. But what actually happened in that moment

00:44:57.900 --> 00:45:01.840
that just startled him was that when he just

00:45:01.840 --> 00:45:04.400
touched the top of my hand, he literally felt

00:45:04.400 --> 00:45:08.059
his hand inside of my hand. Oh, wow. And at that

00:45:08.059 --> 00:45:11.019
very moment when he did that, I looked down and

00:45:11.019 --> 00:45:14.139
I saw the top part of his hand and something

00:45:14.139 --> 00:45:18.119
leapt inside of me. Because just a year ago,

00:45:18.219 --> 00:45:22.199
I was with the Lord in a vision. And we were

00:45:22.199 --> 00:45:24.960
at the top of this mountain overlooking all the

00:45:24.960 --> 00:45:27.079
things of my life and the things that had been

00:45:27.079 --> 00:45:29.739
accomplished. And my husband was standing next

00:45:29.739 --> 00:45:33.039
to me with his arm around me. And the only thing

00:45:33.039 --> 00:45:36.750
I saw was the top of his hand. Oh. And when I

00:45:36.750 --> 00:45:40.210
saw Shane's hand, you know, the skin tone color

00:45:40.210 --> 00:45:44.070
and some have more blue, some more red. But it

00:45:44.070 --> 00:45:46.730
was white when I saw that. And when I saw the

00:45:46.730 --> 00:45:49.349
top of his hand, it was all white. And I thought,

00:45:49.409 --> 00:45:52.900
oh. because you flash back to that vision and

00:45:52.900 --> 00:45:55.679
thinking, no, no, just like Mary, I'll just keep

00:45:55.679 --> 00:45:57.239
things in my heart because I'm not going there.

00:45:57.340 --> 00:45:59.820
After that two years, I'm like, no, I'm loving

00:45:59.820 --> 00:46:02.440
life right now, so I'm okay. And so then we get

00:46:02.440 --> 00:46:06.039
to the, we stop at a gas station before we get

00:46:06.039 --> 00:46:08.699
to the airport. And so now we're sitting across

00:46:08.699 --> 00:46:11.199
from each other and we're just chatting. And

00:46:11.199 --> 00:46:13.420
he asked me a question. I began to answer him

00:46:13.420 --> 00:46:16.320
this question, something about my life. And all

00:46:16.320 --> 00:46:18.659
of a sudden I looked up and he had frozen in

00:46:18.659 --> 00:46:22.150
front of me. And I thought, are you okay? I looked

00:46:22.150 --> 00:46:24.730
at him and he just like broke loose for a minute

00:46:24.730 --> 00:46:27.190
and he pushed his chair back, turned beet red.

00:46:28.010 --> 00:46:31.429
And he's like, no, he said, there's just, there's

00:46:31.429 --> 00:46:33.590
just so much love that comes from your eyes.

00:46:34.170 --> 00:46:36.829
Oh, my. He had gotten lost in my eyes. And he

00:46:36.829 --> 00:46:39.269
was so startled because he's kept himself so

00:46:39.269 --> 00:46:42.909
pure and just, you know, not going anywhere other

00:46:42.909 --> 00:46:44.969
than his only goal was to get Bruce's little

00:46:44.969 --> 00:46:47.590
sister to the airport. Right. And so now we spent

00:46:47.590 --> 00:46:50.769
some time at the airport. Now the wheelchair

00:46:50.769 --> 00:46:53.030
attendant comes and gets me. And they see me

00:46:53.030 --> 00:46:55.230
like, we got to get you down to the airport now.

00:46:55.449 --> 00:46:58.940
It's time to board. They grab my stuff. And they

00:46:58.940 --> 00:47:00.980
were just rushing me off. And I said, hey, hang

00:47:00.980 --> 00:47:03.639
on. Can I just at least give my friend a hug?

00:47:03.760 --> 00:47:06.219
Because, you know, he spent time and got me to

00:47:06.219 --> 00:47:09.380
the airport, gave him a hug. And they wheeled

00:47:09.380 --> 00:47:13.139
me down the airport ramp there. And in that moment

00:47:13.139 --> 00:47:15.719
for Shane, he's like, he said, the strangest

00:47:15.719 --> 00:47:18.280
thing happened was that it felt like my heart

00:47:18.280 --> 00:47:21.000
went with you. And he said, I didn't know, like,

00:47:21.059 --> 00:47:25.340
what is going on? And two days later, we were

00:47:25.340 --> 00:47:28.139
on a phone conversation. And I'm telling him

00:47:28.139 --> 00:47:31.880
about this airport ride that he said, I'm just

00:47:31.880 --> 00:47:34.719
so blessed that Bruce would even say yes to letting

00:47:34.719 --> 00:47:37.280
me take you to the airport. And I said, you have

00:47:37.280 --> 00:47:39.420
no idea what the whole conversation around that.

00:47:39.639 --> 00:47:41.760
And so I was telling him because when I came

00:47:41.760 --> 00:47:43.739
down the next morning, because the girls, ladies

00:47:43.739 --> 00:47:45.039
were wanting to know, are you going to go with

00:47:45.039 --> 00:47:47.280
this guy? And I said, in that moment, I felt

00:47:47.280 --> 00:47:50.199
like Rebecca. I said, will you go with this guy?

00:47:50.500 --> 00:47:54.510
And now Shane is listening. because the prophetic

00:47:54.510 --> 00:47:57.269
word that God had given him was that God would

00:47:57.269 --> 00:48:00.889
bring him his Rebecca. His Rebecca. And so I

00:48:00.889 --> 00:48:05.110
sent him a picture to prove that it got on the

00:48:05.110 --> 00:48:08.110
airplane. He sent it to his best mate, and he

00:48:08.110 --> 00:48:11.889
said, please pray. And his best mate, Kingsley,

00:48:12.110 --> 00:48:15.630
rings him back the next day, and he said, Shane,

00:48:15.730 --> 00:48:18.630
I fell to my knees and cried for half an hour

00:48:18.630 --> 00:48:21.849
in just thanking God because this is your Rebecca.

00:48:22.539 --> 00:48:26.059
Wow. And Shane had knew, because then the Lord

00:48:26.059 --> 00:48:28.860
caught him in a vision and said, will you choose

00:48:28.860 --> 00:48:32.800
her? Wow. And just because, you know, and Shane

00:48:32.800 --> 00:48:35.340
had already chosen me in his heart. Yeah. And

00:48:35.340 --> 00:48:36.940
then when the Lord said, will you choose her?

00:48:37.440 --> 00:48:42.059
And so he was so happy that week. And so the

00:48:42.059 --> 00:48:44.920
following Saturday, one week later, he took me

00:48:44.920 --> 00:48:47.760
off the market. Because remember Michael Van

00:48:47.760 --> 00:48:49.880
Gleiman's words, you'll be quick. One week later,

00:48:50.039 --> 00:48:53.579
two weeks later from that. He was in the U .S.

00:48:53.619 --> 00:48:55.659
where the next day after he arrived, we were

00:48:55.659 --> 00:48:58.239
ring shopping. And then four days later, we were

00:48:58.239 --> 00:49:03.119
engaged. Wow. So it all happened so fast. That's

00:49:03.119 --> 00:49:04.960
an arranged marriage. That's an arranged marriage.

00:49:04.960 --> 00:49:07.260
Arranged marriage by God. Yes. And, you know,

00:49:07.320 --> 00:49:09.699
it's interesting you say that because, you know,

00:49:09.760 --> 00:49:11.300
I always thought, you know, when I meet the guy,

00:49:11.420 --> 00:49:13.659
all the sparks and all these things would happen,

00:49:13.780 --> 00:49:16.340
right? Right. And I remember thinking about how

00:49:16.340 --> 00:49:19.239
quickly this was happening. And Shane telling

00:49:19.239 --> 00:49:22.840
me, you know, I will pursue you. You don't have

00:49:22.840 --> 00:49:26.199
to. And even if you decide that I'm not the one

00:49:26.199 --> 00:49:28.739
you want or whatever, it's okay. But just know

00:49:28.739 --> 00:49:31.480
I'm the one that will pursue you. And I'm thinking,

00:49:31.659 --> 00:49:33.880
okay. Because I hadn't said yes or anything to

00:49:33.880 --> 00:49:35.780
all this. All this is really happening. This

00:49:35.780 --> 00:49:38.300
was in the first week. And then I remember thinking,

00:49:38.400 --> 00:49:41.079
I'm walking down the hallway of my house and

00:49:41.079 --> 00:49:44.500
saying, Lord, I don't have all these sparks.

00:49:45.079 --> 00:49:48.460
I know you're doing something in this man. And

00:49:48.460 --> 00:49:50.599
it looks like, from what I can see, everything's

00:49:50.599 --> 00:49:53.679
coming together. And it's like an arranged marriage.

00:49:54.519 --> 00:49:57.199
And all of a sudden, I heard him so clearly saying,

00:49:57.340 --> 00:50:00.239
that's what you asked me for. Is that if I would

00:50:00.239 --> 00:50:03.760
be your matchmaker. I'm like, that's what it

00:50:03.760 --> 00:50:06.199
is. Oh, I have to tell you one more part. When

00:50:06.199 --> 00:50:09.409
Bruce and Rashma came home. I got home on a Tuesday,

00:50:09.530 --> 00:50:11.409
and Shane and I were already starting the conversations.

00:50:11.809 --> 00:50:13.590
They came home. I picked them up from the airport

00:50:13.590 --> 00:50:16.130
on Thursday. And, of course, that's a long trip

00:50:16.130 --> 00:50:19.769
back, and Bruce is tired and rushed. But I said,

00:50:19.789 --> 00:50:20.949
Bruce, I've got to tell you one thing. I've got

00:50:20.949 --> 00:50:22.889
to tell you one thing. This is okay. He said,

00:50:22.909 --> 00:50:25.010
what? So he's getting ready to get in his big

00:50:25.010 --> 00:50:27.730
truck to head home. And I said, you remember

00:50:27.730 --> 00:50:29.889
when you said I might meet somebody in Australia?

00:50:30.449 --> 00:50:34.050
And he says, yeah. And I said, I think I met

00:50:34.050 --> 00:50:38.789
him. And he's like, who? Oh, yeah. And I said,

00:50:38.909 --> 00:50:45.070
Shane. Shane who? And Resh was like, honey. That

00:50:45.070 --> 00:50:48.730
sounds like you. We'll tell you our story later.

00:50:49.989 --> 00:50:52.909
Yeah. Resh was like, honey, the guy that took

00:50:52.909 --> 00:50:57.250
her to the airport. Oh, he's like, oh, I already

00:50:57.250 --> 00:51:01.269
knew that. I'm like, you knew that? He said,

00:51:01.289 --> 00:51:03.769
that's old news. And then he looks at me with

00:51:03.769 --> 00:51:06.289
that. That twinkle in his eye. Just don't move

00:51:06.289 --> 00:51:11.510
there before I do. I'm thinking, what? Because

00:51:11.510 --> 00:51:14.349
I didn't know he knew. I didn't know any of this.

00:51:14.849 --> 00:51:17.429
But just to have that confirmation. And then

00:51:17.429 --> 00:51:20.329
the Lord has just given us one confirmation after

00:51:20.329 --> 00:51:22.909
another, after another, after another. Tell them

00:51:22.909 --> 00:51:26.710
about the picture. Oh, yes. So then two weeks

00:51:26.710 --> 00:51:28.349
after, you know, Shane and I had conversations,

00:51:28.769 --> 00:51:32.510
he's taken me off the market. What does that

00:51:32.510 --> 00:51:34.469
mean, he's taken you off the market? Explain

00:51:34.469 --> 00:51:38.510
that. So I was at a conference right after the

00:51:38.510 --> 00:51:42.909
Australia trip. I mean, literally got home, repacked

00:51:42.909 --> 00:51:47.630
my bags, went to Tri -Cities. And I'm there.

00:51:47.710 --> 00:51:49.250
And, of course, we're standing in line waiting

00:51:49.250 --> 00:51:51.750
for the doors to open. And I'm just an attendee.

00:51:51.909 --> 00:51:54.710
And so people ask, like, so are you married?

00:51:54.969 --> 00:51:57.190
Do you have children? I'm like, no. And then

00:51:57.190 --> 00:51:59.510
one of the times they said, are you seeing anybody?

00:51:59.889 --> 00:52:04.449
And I said. No, not really. Now, this was the

00:52:04.449 --> 00:52:06.170
first week Shane and I are in conversations.

00:52:06.489 --> 00:52:08.070
And he's telling me, I'm going to pursue you,

00:52:08.110 --> 00:52:10.349
da, da, da. But nothing was official, right?

00:52:10.690 --> 00:52:14.130
So I'm telling him this, you know, in our evening

00:52:14.130 --> 00:52:16.730
conversation. I said, yeah, I asked if I'm seeing

00:52:16.730 --> 00:52:19.429
anybody. And I told him I wasn't seeing anybody.

00:52:19.570 --> 00:52:21.369
And he said, what do you mean you're not seeing

00:52:21.369 --> 00:52:23.730
anybody? What do I need to do? I'm trying to

00:52:23.730 --> 00:52:26.489
get to the U .S. as fast as I can so I can make

00:52:26.489 --> 00:52:29.469
it official. I said, well. You can make it official

00:52:29.469 --> 00:52:32.090
without being in person. He's like, okay, what

00:52:32.090 --> 00:52:35.349
do I need to do? And I said, well, they usually

00:52:35.349 --> 00:52:37.110
call it taking you off the market. And he said,

00:52:37.190 --> 00:52:40.030
okay, whatever that is, I'll do that. Because

00:52:40.030 --> 00:52:42.969
when you take somebody off the market, it's like

00:52:42.969 --> 00:52:45.170
when you take a house, it's no longer for sale.

00:52:45.389 --> 00:52:48.289
It's off the market. So nobody else can claim

00:52:48.289 --> 00:52:51.030
it. It's off the market. So he's like, okay,

00:52:51.110 --> 00:52:53.010
I'll claim you. He's like, you're off the market.

00:52:53.639 --> 00:52:56.380
Wow, in so many words. In so many words, yeah.

00:52:56.480 --> 00:52:58.420
Which is exactly what Michael Van Vlijmen had

00:52:58.420 --> 00:53:00.900
said. Exactly what Michael had said. It was off

00:53:00.900 --> 00:53:05.500
the market within one week. Wow. Okay, we needed

00:53:05.500 --> 00:53:08.099
an explanation. Okay, now tell about the picture.

00:53:08.320 --> 00:53:10.639
Okay, so the picture. So then this was a couple

00:53:10.639 --> 00:53:14.699
weeks in when I'm off the market now, and he

00:53:14.699 --> 00:53:16.340
said, hey, take a look at this. I want to send

00:53:16.340 --> 00:53:20.000
you a picture. And he sends me the picture, and

00:53:20.000 --> 00:53:24.219
there it's of him. the wooden fence with the

00:53:24.219 --> 00:53:27.699
two rungs, the reddish dirt, and the mountain

00:53:27.699 --> 00:53:32.559
behind him. He was the kangaroo. Isn't that remarkable?

00:53:32.559 --> 00:53:35.039
And the second kangaroo that was sitting there

00:53:35.039 --> 00:53:38.500
eating was his best mate because who had been

00:53:38.500 --> 00:53:43.039
on his knees. For 12 years, praying and crying

00:53:43.039 --> 00:53:45.519
out to God, when, Lord, when will you send us

00:53:45.519 --> 00:53:49.320
Rebecca? Because Shane has gone through heartache

00:53:49.320 --> 00:53:53.079
after heartache with the testings, all the things,

00:53:53.159 --> 00:53:57.500
from losing so much of everything. And he'd come

00:53:57.500 --> 00:54:00.360
to that point where he had nothing. He was in

00:54:00.360 --> 00:54:03.500
27 -hour pain because of work -related injuries.

00:54:03.920 --> 00:54:07.460
And he said, Lord, but he remained faithful in

00:54:07.460 --> 00:54:10.539
saying, Lord, I'm just grateful I'm saved. And

00:54:10.539 --> 00:54:14.659
just that gratitude. And what he didn't know

00:54:14.659 --> 00:54:17.239
was that his pastor, when he was leaving for

00:54:17.239 --> 00:54:20.199
the Australian School of the Supernatural, knew

00:54:20.199 --> 00:54:23.280
that he's like, she said, when you left for that

00:54:23.280 --> 00:54:25.900
school, I knew you were about to meet your wife.

00:54:26.280 --> 00:54:31.300
Wow. And so that was his promise. After confirmation.

00:54:31.460 --> 00:54:35.079
Because he said, I couldn't see my future. And

00:54:35.079 --> 00:54:38.119
then God turned it around in a day. Wow. Amen.

00:54:38.380 --> 00:54:43.960
Glory to God. It's just such the promises of

00:54:43.960 --> 00:54:46.219
God that if we just remain faithful, as I taught

00:54:46.219 --> 00:54:49.239
in the school, that promise he gives is our tikvah,

00:54:49.260 --> 00:54:53.460
that rope. And I hung on to it when I was 21.

00:54:53.920 --> 00:54:56.920
And the word tikvah also means hope. Hope, yes.

00:54:57.320 --> 00:55:00.119
So hope is a rope. Yes, hope is a rope. And I

00:55:00.119 --> 00:55:02.440
hung on to that because from the prophetic word,

00:55:02.500 --> 00:55:04.619
I'd be married. But there were so many things

00:55:04.619 --> 00:55:08.150
because I was like, any guy, Nobody would come

00:55:08.150 --> 00:55:11.210
near me, you know, because I had assumed it was

00:55:11.210 --> 00:55:13.530
because of the crutches. You know, why would

00:55:13.530 --> 00:55:15.230
they? And how tall are you? And how, you know,

00:55:15.269 --> 00:55:18.369
I'm what, four foot nine. So very petite. And

00:55:18.369 --> 00:55:20.349
so it was just like, you know, they're like,

00:55:20.429 --> 00:55:22.150
yeah, we like you, but we just couldn't do the

00:55:22.150 --> 00:55:24.309
crutches. You know, we want to be able to do

00:55:24.309 --> 00:55:26.449
this with our wife. All these things. And so

00:55:26.449 --> 00:55:28.530
it created all these stories. But I had to let

00:55:28.530 --> 00:55:30.789
that go. Right. But one of the things I said

00:55:30.789 --> 00:55:33.190
to the Lord, I said, Lord, let me meet my husband

00:55:33.190 --> 00:55:36.099
before you give me new legs. Yes. Because then

00:55:36.099 --> 00:55:38.900
I know he really loves me for me, you know, not

00:55:38.900 --> 00:55:42.159
what I can do because people were attracted to

00:55:42.159 --> 00:55:44.619
what I could do, attracted to the ministry, to

00:55:44.619 --> 00:55:47.380
the stage life, all these things. And it's like,

00:55:47.420 --> 00:55:49.940
Lord, just let him love me for me. And that was

00:55:49.940 --> 00:55:52.659
Shane's first words. He said, he said, I'm not

00:55:52.659 --> 00:55:55.260
going to even read your book or read anything

00:55:55.260 --> 00:55:57.659
online because I want to get to know who you

00:55:57.659 --> 00:56:00.719
are and love you for you. Beautiful. And that

00:56:00.719 --> 00:56:02.900
was the first time somebody really said that

00:56:02.900 --> 00:56:06.280
to me. Wow. Yeah. So just a beautiful story that

00:56:06.280 --> 00:56:09.840
God just remaining faithful. So you've written

00:56:09.840 --> 00:56:13.179
a book and it's called? From Crutches to Crushing

00:56:13.179 --> 00:56:15.969
It. From Crutches to Crushing It, and it's available

00:56:15.969 --> 00:56:18.449
on Amazon? Yes, it's on Amazon. Okay. And it's

00:56:18.449 --> 00:56:21.769
my story of my beginnings, because people have

00:56:21.769 --> 00:56:24.230
to know where I started from to really understand

00:56:24.230 --> 00:56:27.750
all the promises that he's fulfilled in the music

00:56:27.750 --> 00:56:29.730
world, in the business world, and now ministry

00:56:29.730 --> 00:56:33.289
in the speaking world. Yes, and in the married

00:56:33.289 --> 00:56:36.849
world. Now, that'll be volume two. Okay, but

00:56:36.849 --> 00:56:39.269
you also have a promise for your healing. Yes.

00:56:40.460 --> 00:56:42.679
Give us that, because I want you to pray for

00:56:42.679 --> 00:56:45.920
people to press in for their promises. Yes, yes,

00:56:45.960 --> 00:56:49.199
because when Bruce had seen me, I was at a conference

00:56:49.199 --> 00:56:53.320
with him in TomTom, Washington, and he was praying,

00:56:53.360 --> 00:56:56.300
and all of a sudden, he looked up, and instead

00:56:56.300 --> 00:56:59.420
of seeing me at the 4 '9", he saw me at the 5

00:56:59.420 --> 00:57:02.719
'8", 5 '10", and I was like an Amazon woman.

00:57:02.800 --> 00:57:07.349
He's like, oh. this is who she is. And so, and

00:57:07.349 --> 00:57:10.010
through the years, I would have students tell

00:57:10.010 --> 00:57:12.650
me like, you know, Ms. Bartel, can we share a

00:57:12.650 --> 00:57:15.289
dream we had? It would be like, sure. I was like,

00:57:15.349 --> 00:57:18.849
I dreamed you had new legs. Wow. You know, and

00:57:18.849 --> 00:57:21.949
then I was just even a year ago, a lady was praying

00:57:21.949 --> 00:57:24.750
and she said, she turned around shocked and she

00:57:24.750 --> 00:57:27.269
saw me. She said, oh my goodness, you were just

00:57:27.269 --> 00:57:29.670
in my vision. I've never seen you before, but

00:57:29.670 --> 00:57:32.940
in my vision, you were up and dancing. Wow. And

00:57:32.940 --> 00:57:36.699
I said, the time is coming closer and closer

00:57:36.699 --> 00:57:39.480
because it's not, if I will be healed, it's a

00:57:39.480 --> 00:57:41.940
win. Exactly. Because again, it's a surrender

00:57:41.940 --> 00:57:44.760
to him because I know I've got my tikvah, my

00:57:44.760 --> 00:57:47.900
hope, the promise that he said, you know, I will

00:57:47.900 --> 00:57:51.300
be healed. I will have new legs, you know. And

00:57:51.300 --> 00:57:55.280
so that's, it's the constant saying and surrendering.

00:57:55.280 --> 00:57:58.079
And it's easier to surrender when you have your

00:57:58.079 --> 00:58:01.039
tikvah, when you have the promises. And ultimately.

00:58:01.610 --> 00:58:05.969
He is our hope. Absolutely. Absolutely. So now,

00:58:06.030 --> 00:58:09.670
will you pray for people to have their hope restored,

00:58:09.989 --> 00:58:12.949
their hope strengthened, that they can hang on

00:58:12.949 --> 00:58:15.150
to their promises and really believe what God

00:58:15.150 --> 00:58:17.590
said he's going to do? Because he's done so many

00:58:17.590 --> 00:58:20.670
already for you. Yes. They're already being fulfilled

00:58:20.670 --> 00:58:24.920
things that from the time you were 21. You were

00:58:24.920 --> 00:58:26.460
getting the promise. You're going to be married.

00:58:26.559 --> 00:58:29.239
You're going to be married. And as soon as the

00:58:29.239 --> 00:58:31.739
visa comes through, you have 90 days, right?

00:58:31.820 --> 00:58:34.739
And it'll be fast. It'll be very fast. Glory

00:58:34.739 --> 00:58:37.360
to God. So pray for our listeners, would you?

00:58:37.420 --> 00:58:40.599
Yes. Father, we just come before you. Thank you

00:58:40.599 --> 00:58:43.440
for your faithfulness. Thank you for your goodness.

00:58:44.159 --> 00:58:47.000
And as you know, every single listener that's

00:58:47.000 --> 00:58:49.320
listening, Father, you know, where they thought

00:58:49.320 --> 00:58:53.739
all hope was lost in knowing we know you as our

00:58:53.739 --> 00:58:57.030
hope. And Father, the promises that you've given

00:58:57.030 --> 00:59:00.510
that seem to be so far away, Lord, even for me

00:59:00.510 --> 00:59:03.369
when I thought it was the impossible, like I

00:59:03.369 --> 00:59:05.750
didn't even have a guy on the horizon. Lord,

00:59:05.869 --> 00:59:08.730
how is this going to happen? But yet you are

00:59:08.730 --> 00:59:11.849
the God of the impossible. Yes. And Father, I

00:59:11.849 --> 00:59:15.429
just thank you that in surrendering, Father,

00:59:15.570 --> 00:59:19.250
we just choose to surrender those hopes to you.

00:59:19.309 --> 00:59:22.829
Lord, that I was believing for some person. And,

00:59:22.869 --> 00:59:25.989
Father, I laid it down, and I said, not my will,

00:59:26.030 --> 00:59:28.570
but your will be done. And, Father, that's what

00:59:28.570 --> 00:59:31.269
you're looking for from us, because that is what

00:59:31.269 --> 00:59:34.769
activates the promises to be fulfilled. And,

00:59:34.889 --> 00:59:37.750
Lord, with your listeners, Lord, we just decree

00:59:37.750 --> 00:59:41.250
and declare, not our will, but your will be done,

00:59:41.409 --> 00:59:45.389
Father. Let your name be magnified. And, Father,

00:59:45.429 --> 00:59:49.309
just pray for your people, Lord, that as that

00:59:49.309 --> 00:59:52.429
trust builds, that they just take the step. And

00:59:52.429 --> 00:59:56.070
say, Lord, it's yours. I trust you and I surrender

00:59:56.070 --> 00:59:59.650
it to you. And Father, just thank you for your

00:59:59.650 --> 01:00:02.510
faithfulness that you answer those prayers. You

01:00:02.510 --> 01:00:05.949
answer those cries of the heart. Lord, that you

01:00:05.949 --> 01:00:10.090
care for every detail of our lives and that you

01:00:10.090 --> 01:00:12.909
will walk in and give them their promises. Father,

01:00:12.989 --> 01:00:16.289
because you are our God of hope. Thank you, Father.

01:00:16.329 --> 01:00:19.409
We bless you and we love you. In Jesus' name.

01:00:19.820 --> 01:00:44.960
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